Dear Yani, hope you're doing great so far.

I'm sory.

saya hanya sangat sedih...

saya agak membosankan lately, mungkin sbb byk masalah. =(

I'm sory,sy xboleh bg yang terbek tok awak.

Dear Awak tersayang,

maaf kalau terungkit kisah lepas.

tapi yang pasti,kisah lalu sangat pedih unt sy lupakan.

spt baru smlm, sy menangis,meraung,merane,kecewe.

Awak tolong la jauhi dia,

dia masih sgt cintakan awak,

dia nak awak.

sy nak awak juge.

sy xpinta utk awak PILIH saya,

saya sgt bersyukur.

mungkin awak takdir sy.

mungkin sbb itu kite masih bersama smpi kini.

saya pasrah segala yang berlaku,

I'm fighting life 4 u.

yes i do, coz i love u so much.

Dear wanita,

ckuplah.

awak menang.

awak kuat.

awak boleh bunuh sy.

kalo itu yg awak nak.

dan kalo itu takdir sy.

So i caught this blog the owner is Noorliyani .

Aku tahu kaw sgt tabah skrg.

Please be good, May Allah Bless.

Whover you mean it to be, DIA mmg kejam.

ohh. How I miss you Buddy

Aww. thanks to Rush sbb bg Bella something which i think so sweet lah syg.

if bole, i would like to quote this to an OLD FRIEND of mine.
You used to be this sweet and romantic, oh dear, how I miss YOUUU!!
Damn i miss Nilai and those freaky. sweet, bitchy, funny memories of yours ( you and me)
Takpelah, I tak kesah, things happened long time ago. Tak patut ingat balik kan kan kan??
cheers, Megi.

" Your touch can set me on fire, YOU make me smile all the time, YOU make me laugh out loud, YOU listen to all the silly things I have to say, YOU seem to understand me, even though I'm not making a lot of sense, YOU never fail to brighten up my day, with YOU, I feel comfortable, secure and stronger, YOU always know what's on my mind. MOMENTS spent with YOU are always magical. YOU let me be myself. YOU believe in me, and make me believe in myself. YOU make me feel like my dreams will always come true. YOU're the MOST IMPORTANT PERSON in the worold to me! Everything about YOU is AMAZING to me , oh love, YOU're the one I love! "

awwww. Heres the gift!

Sweet kan kann??!!!!
Sorry Rush fer uploading this.

which me also hoping someone would give me this,

tapi I kan takde org nak. Kesian tak dpt ape-ape from sape-sape. 

hah ini lah padahnya jadi lesbian. =.='

kenapa takde yg paham?

so, currently there goes my baby - usher kept playing on the phone over and over again.
then lagu Three words - Cheryl Cole and Will.i.am tambah buat aku nanges.
well, me myself didnt get it why should i've been acting this way.
ya Allah. perasaan aku bercampur baur. ape maksud sume ni.
aku tak mampu nak nanges lagi. sbb aku tahu, its not worth it to cry fer him.
aku terluka bila fikir balek, nope, aku tak fikir pun, cuma it cames suddenly to my mind.
nana, why dun you get it hes not meant fer you syg.
i hate motivate myself with this not-so-sure feelings.
pergi, pergi bagitahu suma aku yg jahat, aku yg kotor, aku yg sebabkan sume kekacaun
ape lagi yg kaw nk musnahkan hidup aku hah?
by now mungkin bkn kaw yg seksa prasaan aku, tp aku sendiri yg seksa suma ni
bkn aku taknak lepaskan suma ni pergi, cuma aku tak mampu.
aku rase berdosa seksa diri macam ni, i need you in my life.

i just need someone to be there next to me, wipe my tears, lend his shoulder when im down,
keeping me warm when im in tense.
Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together. but is it true that , sadness flies away on the wings of time?!!
oh god, help me. help me finding the truth, the real me. im lost.
Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.
There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go. and not fer me pls.
i dont want you to go. i cant, as in not that i never try, i tried,
seems it went so wrong when i do so.

ya Allah, kuatkan hati hambamu.
aku perlukan someone now to love me.

i took about one and half an hour to complete this short entry. huh.
ini sebab aku benci ble typing an entry while crying heavily.

Overboard. i really NEED you syg. come back please.

It feels like we've been out at sea,
So back and forth that's how it seems,
And when I want to talk, you say to me
That if it's meant to be, it will be

So crazy is this thing we call love
And now that we've got it we just can't give up
I'm reaching out for you
Got me out here in the water and I

I'm overboard and I need your love, pull me up
I can't swim on my own, it's too much
Feels like I'm drowning without your love
So throw yourself out to me, my lifesaver

Never understood you when you said,
Wanted me to meet you halfway,
I felt like I was doing my part
You kept thinking you're coming up short
It's funny how things change

It's supposed to be some give and take, I know
But you're only taking and not given any more
So what do I do? 'Cause I still love you
You're the only one who can save me.

syg, nape jauh dari nana ):
please im sorry n amek your phone n text me
hee i tak ingat no phone you.

ok so macammacam yg terjadi. urghh

ok lets just talk bout last 2 weeks [15.11.2010] ;

Me, Aref Zackry, and Allia Ammanda went fer a movie watching ; SKYLINE kt Wangsa Walk.
and like i did not expected, that movie such a rubbish fiction. Ntah mane timbulnye alien.
Like aref said ; takde permulaan and pengakhiran cerita.  HAHAHA.
So, lps tgk movie, me n aref hantar Alya to Kl Sentral since she must be in Subang before 7pm,
we were in rush and while then in the car, aref has been a very good Dr Love. HAHA
Dia mmg nasehat Alya kaw-kaw about her love life. thanks to youu lelaki.
Haha hes really a VERY GOOD MOTIVATOR. Lepas balik dari Kl Sentral, aref treat me my
ooh lalala fav ; Mcflurry Oreo. emm sedapp. haha dia blanje pun sbb aku da tongtong duit minyak kete
Myvi hitam ketot dia tu. and dia suka sgt lempang peha gebu sy! damn damn~ lepas tu aref bwk aku
tgk skolah lama dia. HAHA. Selangor International Islamic School, haha unfortunately aref takde ciriciri islamic langsong. blah blah blah.. Then kitorg lalu UIA Gombak,

Nana ; Aref aref jumla masokk. ktew jalan2 tgk!
Aref ; ahh you ingt bole masok dgn u pakai dress pendek nmpak peha?! kalaw pakai selua takpe lagi.

ok, so i get it. nk masok UIA kenelah tutup aurat cik Nana. haish. so, kecundang tak dpt jln2 dlm UIA.
HAHA tp mmg best keluar dgn youuu syg. Though u mmg ske tampa peha i.
Lepas tu Alya called, ckp fcuk fcuk, bpk dia amek lmbt lagi kt Subang. She almost cried, kesian you sygg

thanks guys, rindu nk lepak wit both of you, Nana had such a great time with you guys buddy.

 em itu dia org gila.

 alya syg.

and the next day [16.11.2010] ;
HAHA baru daku teringat sepit rambut bunga tertinggal dlm Myvi Aref.
urgh ok at first dia kata nk bg lepas raya since he wants to send over his car fer services.
tiba2 pukul 3 lbey, he called ckp ; Na i dtg hanta skrg laaa.
pergh aku dah la belum mandi lagi. Mmg rase nk marah. Asyik call suroh cepatt je.
Then he picks me up kt Melati, ktorg g mkn kt nearest Mcd since dua2 tgh starving gila nk mampos.
and ad Mcflurry oreo yg abg Mcd tu letak oreooooo bykkk gilaaaaa!! aww.
then pegi Lrt Gombak, parking kereta makan kt situ. haha buat org len curiga je bedua2an atas kete. haish
so, i went back to Equine Park, Sri Kembangan rumah angah nk raya kan esoknya

 thanks wati darling, kaw mmg buat aku senyum sentiasa (: ily syg

then [17.11.2010] ;
haha rasenye aku tak raya pon. mandi pun lbey kurang 6pm. HAHA
plus tak g mana2 pon, abah n along raya sarawak, kaklang pulak keje.

Lalala.

[18.10.2010] ;
pegi Jusco Setiawangsa. meet kaklang there.Nek Lrt yg sgt tenang sket org.
then we headed to Carrefour Wangsa Maju pulak, ahaha.
dan hari itu, i bought myself 2 new short dress.
ahhh nana mmg sukaaaaa the very short dress with showing off some skin and legs!

so Sabtu [20.10.2010] ;
i texted Aref ckp nk pegi Klcc. borink duk rumah, i asked him to join me,
haha then dia mrajuk, ckp kate nk g tgk Harry Potter dgn i kt Wangsa Walk hari ni.
alolo. then yela2, i said ok and lets go to watch HP.
tp syg sbb tak bole gune student card for discount price, maklumlah tgk hujung mggu.
haha nk pkai student card konon, kad UIA, tp peha putih nmpk sana sini. mmg UIA lah sgtt.
dan lepas tgk, dia membebel mcm org tua ckp kecewa dgn cerita kesygn dia tu. haha
pottt pett pott pett dia membebelbebel. LALALA.And,aref bwk aku g mkn KFC. haha dia blanje, wuhoo.
sedap kenyang perot buncit betaaaa!!
and we drive thru at McD beli Mcfluryy sy. (:
dan dia pun hantar sy kembali pulang ke Melati.

pfft*

sunday [21.11.2010] ;
abg najib bwk pegi makan di Jusco. Lalala lapa wehh.
then we went to Fahrenheit, Uniqlo. makk, they served a very kind of soo gooood clothing. emm
and again that day i owned another two dress.one of them was from Uniqlo. hee~

hee kikilala

[22.11.2010] ;
dan hari isnin i went back to Bukit Antarabngsa, with lots and lots of stuff!!!
sy mmg org nomad. pindah randah selalu. since abah baru sampai dr Srwk, i cooked lunch fer him
hehe nana pandai masak - da bole sgt jadi istri raja neh. emm tak saba nk kawen, sape masok minang, beta terima je, haha

 wktu di Nilai, 1st day shortsem.ehem

dan selasa [23.10.2010] ;
aku baru mgn tdo, dan dapat msg from Putri whch says ; darling, scholar da masok, pegi lah kuakan.
and aku rep, haha lempang laju2 kang. then daku ape lagi suh meor cek, haha bila meor cek sama farok,
haha terbukti benarrrrr,, ad1k lam akaun muamalat.
hari tu jgk aku transfer ke akaun laen.

shes the best in mylife.

dan semua bising on saturday [27.11.2010] ;
waktu maghrib Barbie called me ckp ; NANANANANAAAAAAAAAAAAA duet kis dlm akaun da takde!!
Aku ckp la impossible,. urgh. kementrian mmg jahat, mane bole tarek shcolar org sesuka hati datok nenek diaaa. then aku pun text armi n awan, suh check n transfer duet now. haha
lepas tu awan pon ngamok jgk akaun dia da ksong. kesian sygg aku ni.
takpe, tunggu duet ptptn k darling.

 haha ini mmg penat. dgn sepet dulu, baru lepas balek dr Dragonfly

dan ahad malam whch was last night, Dira text me ckp tak dpt jumpe aku today since Amin nk amek dia kt Sungai Buloh
ok so, Bella n Alya was right, and nana senanye tak kesah pun korg berchinta, janji bahagia n dia jage kamu baek2 sygg,
laki tu cuma satu kesilapan dlm dunia aku. tak tahu sbb apa dia wujud dlm lovelife dyana sharif.

dan hari ni, haha daku plan nk g KLCC tgk movie sorg2. ahhh. best!
tp tak tahu mcm mana plan dgn alya, since sume menda tak jadi hari ni,
HUHU ajak g PJ rabu ni aja, emm dia nk drive, yet still tak tahu ap kptsn alya syg.
n mlm td ruby called me, cerita masalah sdih dia. wish i was there to hug youu syg, em.
ok, aku rindu semua kt Nilai aclty and Pj too.  (:

 lovelove.

 em miss you guys.

dan mlm tadi mimpi zana dtg bilik 316 di PJ, sambil cerita hal poiltiknya. rindu kamuu syg

 zana pott pott ksygn sy!. HAHA

Bruno Mars - Grenade.

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss, Had your eyes wide open -
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh You’ d watch me burn down in flames You said you loved me you're a liar Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya

I’d jump in front of a train for ya You know I'd do anything for ya I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No

Semalam tadi paling indah

Semalam wktu driving class, alya told me dia passed the interview kt Gombak. nk nanges dpt taw she can go to Gombakl with us to do degree, hey baby Allia Ammanda, Nana loves you. I really do.

but semalam, my name wasnt in Gombak database for pre-registration. i cried a lot.
Khairul Afnan ada, i really need you syg. thanks for be there ptg smlm. i really those support.
and, mlm td, hee i did text someone. hes someone that i've been thinking each day since past few months ago.


maaf, nana pun tahu tak bole sebut name kamu kt sini. but, im glad that there are some msg that we did laugh together. i miss you alot buddy. if only i can hug you now n lepas sume rindu. alya pun nk meet you. hangout.
tp ntah, you seems busy with your work stuff.

and now di Nilai, a staff from Art Programme did told me that my name was in the list to Gombak, cuma tercicir. whattahel?  tp Ruby ajak tdo Nilai. hee i'll be to do so sygs. Nilai, theres so much tears and joy.




love, love - Nanun <3

hear me cry God.

theres too many things to be told, too many tears to be cried out, too many confusions to be cleared, too many hurts people doesnt know. i wish they will never knew.

hear me cry, God. i've gone lost too than it should.

apa azam baru tuk bulan puasa ni? i need someone to guide me back to the way it is. having those weird feelings really got me down. well im a lil bit worry fer this evening. Mdm Bad will distribute our GPL2 paper. for God sake, i dreamed of it last night, n i failed that paper. Kis n Bella says it wont be that way. selalulnya apa yg kita mimpi akan jadi sebaliknya. Well itu kepercayaan lama lah sayangg. So far, fer both papers yg repeat lulus lagi. Alhamdulillah.

i miss you Ibu. lifes just get so hard without you day by day. Ramadhan tanpa ibu, tanpa abah. ouh how i wish my family know i love them so much. da lama tak lawat kubur Ibu. may you rest in peace Mom. rasa nak menangis, marah, semua ada. kerinduan yang teramat pun ada, kenapa susah sgt nk luah semua ni.

i think no one can understand the feelings that i bear right now. not even you or you. i hate the way it hurts me. i hate the feeling of unstable.lost control, lost..

dah lama tak baca Qur'an. dah lama tak kembali ke jalan Allah. aku perlukan bimbingan.

ya Allah. bantu aku.

sejuk hati melihat semua ni. bantu aku Tuhan. 

kamu

tiba tiba teringat Hazim dan nanges. kenapa entah. 


*ouh bagus sgt lah type entry ni sambil dengar stay. FCUK

kamu kamu

i love you.

maafkan nana.

Stay - Miley Cyrus

please stay sayang.

Well it's good to hear your voice
I hope you're doing fine
And if you ever wonder
I'm lonely here tonight

I'm lost here in this moment
And time keeps slipping by
And if I could have just one wish
I'd have you by my side

I miss you , I need you

And I love you more
Than I did before
And then today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed
No one could take your place
It gets harder every day
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way
But I'm coming home
I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay
I will stay

Well I try to live without you
But tears fall from my eyes
I'm alone and I feel empty
God, I'm torn apart inside
I look up at the stars
Hoping you're doing the same
And somehow I feel closer
And I can hear you say

I miss you , I need you

I love you more
Than I did before
And then today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed
No one could take your place
It gets harder every day
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay

I will stay
Always stay
I never want to lose you
And if I had to, I would choose you
So stay
Please always stay
You're the one that I hold on to
Cause my heart would stop without you

I love you more
Than I did before
And then today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed
No one could take your place
It gets harder every day
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay
I will stay
I'll always stay


p/s ; ntah berapa kali aku patut nanges lagi. benar. hubungan ni mmg tiada kesudahan